in response to onetymetreasures... Aww...sweetie,
You have experienced one of the most painful lost there is.
"Allow yourself time to grieve",NO matter how long it takes!!!
I discovered that happiness can be a choice. Now,what I mean by this is sometimes I have to take life literally 'minute by minute'. I tell myself "I'm going to be happy for the next 5 minutes" & then think all happy thoughts for that 5 minutes.
So, at least I could be happy for at least 5 minutes of the day.
I'm sure your mother was a great lady. What were her favorite hobbies? What was she like? Do you look like her?
You sound like a wonderful person. You are very much loved. God loves you very much. I know that it may seem at times that He does not love us. At least for me, it has seemed that way. But,He does love us more than we can even fathom.
I will pray for God to comfort you. And, I'm confident that He will.